Am i Already Dead???

This is a very true and realistic feeling. In true sense death is actually near us and may come anytime so this feeling 'was' always with me and 'is' always with me. But this feeling does not frighten me. In fact it gives me a pleasure.

This life is temporary and we live with many limitations, fears and questions.

Life after death would be forever and curtain behind all the realities would be unveiled.

I even feel sometimes that this moment is my last one.. but nothing happens.. Its only our fear to live and do certain acts which can apart us. Other wise every wise man has this uncertainity abt his/her death..

Death is always close by. It’s almost like your shadow. You may be aware, you may not be aware, but it follows you from the first moment of your life to the very last moment. Death is a process just as life is a process, and they are almost together, like two wheels of a bullock cart. Life cannot exist without death; neither can death exist without life.

Our minds have an insane desire: we want only life and not death. We don't look at the existential truth, we always cling to our own insane desire. And this desire is in almost in every living creature, not only human beings. Even the trees are afraid of death, but trees can be forgiven. They are only unconscious -- fast asleep.

But you are a little bit awake: you can sense the presence of death. Hence the possibility opens for a deeper understanding, that life and death are all together, two extremes of one energy. Life is the active force and death is the inactive force. Life is the positive electricity and death is the negative electricity, but they cannot be separated.

So whenever you feel fear, it is a time to understand that life is ephemeral, it is made of the same stuff as dreams are made of. How real the dream looks when you are asleep. In fact, more real than your experiences when you are awake. You may have never thought about it, but while you are awake you can doubt: "Perhaps what I am seeing may be just a dream." I may be a dream, you may be a dream, and this whole world may be just a dream. Soon you will be awake and you will find, "Oh God! It was just a dream."

There is a possibility when you are awake to suspect, to doubt the reality that surrounds you. But when you are asleep, you cannot even doubt the existence of the dream. It is so real, it is more real than reality. Have you ever doubted any dream, thinking that perhaps what you are seeing is a dream? The moment you doubt, you are awake from the sleep, and the dream is immediately finished. The dream can remain there only if you are totally asleep, so deep that no doubt, no suspicion, can arise in you.

Death is a constant reminder that, "I can come any moment. Be prepared."

Be prepared?? Preparation? What is it? Preparation is live life so totally, so intensely, be so aflame with it that when death comes there is no complaint, there is no grudge. You are absolutely ready because you have lived life so totally, you have known all its mysteries -- there is no point in living anymore. Death has come exactly at the right time, when you may have thought to die yourself. I call that death perfect which comes at the moment when you yourself may have thought, "It is enough."